themyssing

When the night had peaked
Racing to a plane far
Removed from you or me

That's where we used to live
Out witting the sun gods
that say we cannot be

And when that moment would come
That the heavenly fire would begin
To stir his head on the horizon

One flicker of light dropping
Like the funeral bell
You would grab my hand and we would run west

Till our breath would cease
And you would vanish before my eyes
With a look of devastation and longing

One last kiss as you held my
Face in your hands
Until I see you again

Now I search the night sky
Desperately for you
But we are lost

Do you drive me mad with blind anticipation
      To better serve your ego
Or am I a victim of my own obsessive tendencies?
Blocking this path of forgiveness
      You stand in my way
At times unmovable and strong
Like a shoulder I can always run to
      Other times distant and obscure
But terrifying nonetheless
And I will shy away from you

But do you drive me mad
      To give you satisfaction?
Or am I a victim and my own mind has played this trick on me?
Sleepwalking back to when we first met
      My thoughts have plans of their own
And they don't play nicely

Instead you drive me mad!
      Your slightest touch and my skin is on fire!
I long only to not be left alone
So do with my thoughts as you please
      You know my every desire
And I am helpless
You drive me mad
      With your sick idea of love

So begins this treacherous journey,
Where I fight sleep like a child
And why?
I have no reasons,
But I am torn between my desire
To dream of your face
And my fear that I will dream of your face
For upon waking you would be gone
And I am left lovesick
Like a child once more
So without haste I run!
Phantom, curse of my imagination-
Leave!
And torment me no more
Take what little hope you've placed in me and
Soon I will sleep again
In line with my will to feel the darkness and
soft blanket kindness of a night of rest