I wish I could run further
than across the universe from you
Never fleeting glances behind me
You would be the headlights following close
And I would be the scared girl walking home late
Too afraid to look or I might meet my end
But forever I will remain curious of you
Are you my light to guide me home?
Do you watch carefully from afar
knowing you can never be near to me?
Or are you my last moment
An unaware equivalent of a drunk driver?
The sleepy trucker behind the wheel?
I would follow this dark road
Watching only the yellow stripes for reassurance
But no matter where you go
How far you move away from me
I will always carry you in the back of my mind
As my greatest fear and my one regret
You remain the distant headlights
I'm too scared to look
But, oh, what if I have lost you?
'Dear, I was never yours to have.
You and I were never anything.'
I know that...
But what if you don't know
That you took something from me when you disappeared?
I can't get it back even if I asked
It's yours to keep now
And I must relinquish my fantasies about you
to the empty spaces in times
In another place, another dimension,
there's a place for us
There's a world where I was everything
And it was enough
I live now only to know that infinite possibilities exist
When I have a God like mine on my side
He is the constant unchanging wave
that beats against the rocks,
you're the ever unpredictable shore line
Fading quickly away as I try to walk across
But then you are gone to my touch
And I must be content to walk alone
Oh you, the steady headlight behind me
My one fear, my only regret
Forever just a memory I carry in the back of my mind
A plan I never saw through
Was it worth it?
'Was what worth it?' I hear you say
'Hurting me of course.'
But you don't respond
Because you left a long time ago
And I am stuck in a constant cycle of
Fearing to glance behind me
Knowing that you are nothing more
Than a figment of my dreams at this point